Disclaimer: I disclaim all liability of brain damage from reading this nonsensical blog entry. This was added only after I reread what I wrote. I blame it on it being late. Don’t give me that look!
Like wow. Haven’t blogged since August and now it’s November. Where the fuck did the time go??
Been meaning to write something these last few months, but kept putting it off. A common theme to many facets of my life now (gym pass collecting dust). So what’s got me here this time? Read on fellow adventurer…
I should be sleeping now, but I can’t sleep. Who knows why, but that’s not important. I’ve been feeling kind of like a stale biscuit lately. Just been laying around for way too long…
So anyways, being the stalker that I am, I go on to face book to kill some time until I’m ready to try and sleep again. Normally I just skim the news feed, looking for any interesting updates or photos of people. Mostly this is just work or uni people, since they’re the only people who would interest me these days (I wonder if any work people read this…).
Tonight was a little different, I spied some interesting photos of a friend from primary school. He’s changed.
It made me think though. What happened to all these people? At some point in my life they were my world, though a very long time ago. Where are they now? What are they doing? I see photos and see what they look like, but what kind of person are they now?
Even high school people, I’ve nearly lost all contact with them. In a way it’s almost sad how disconnected we’ve become.
Actually I’m not that sad (I did say almost). Funnily enough, at every stage of my life I was always quite ready to leave the previous world behind. That of course included the people of that world. I always advocated that ‘change is great!’ and that it was inevitable. I still believe that, but there in lies the crux of my situation now.
I’ve reached equilibrium.
I’m in some steady state with no change. Day in day out, week in week out, month in month out. It’s all the same. No wonder time passes so quickly, one week just becomes another which becomes another and another and another.
I think I’m too used to knowing and anticipating change. I knew after the selective high school test, things were going to change as I moved into high school. I knew that after the HSC, things were going to change as I moved into uni and I knew that after uni, things were going to change as I moved into the work force. So now here I am.
Where does one go from here? Previously, it’s almost as if you knew that you got to start a new adventure every 4-6 years. New location, new friends, new activities. Theoretically, I could stay in the same job and place for the next 40 years if I wanted to (now THAT’s SAD).
Haha oh man, all thought, no action. Apathy overload. Time to sleep.


